Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Hard to not get discouraged!

So I did pretty well with my eating today. Not the best but much better than I was eating recently. I had an Egg McMuffin for breakfast, a slice of pizza for lunch, a banana for a snack at work, and some grapes when I got home before I went walking and some tuna salad for dinner. I will probably have a yogurt and/or some fruit later.

Oh and I can't lie, I had a couple bites of chocolate candy bar at work (Thanks Ross!!)

So far I drank 1 liter of water and I will have down 2 liters before the night is over.

The thing that bothers me the most about today

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

I did pretty well today!

So I felt amazing when I woke up this morning! The shots are really making me feel that they will work in the long run. Especially since they are working so well thus far. I go back for more injections on September 9th. I also will be continuing with the Chiropractor once a week as well as massages. However, as soon as I got to work and got stressed out there was quite a bit of pinching and pain in my back and hips. I really wish I could let work NOT get to me so much! I applied for another position at my work and am hoping that it will be less stressful on me!

I counted my calories today and stayed right on track. I had only 2 diet pepsi's today and I drank 2 liters of water today! Not too bad for just starting to get back on track. I went to the store and despite it being that unhappy time of the month for me and wanting candy and ice cream. I managed to pick up healthier chocolate snacks such as special K wafer bars, sugar free fudgsicles, fruit, and yogurts.

I went for a 1 mile walk with my son and my pup. I don't want to push myself too hard too fast. So I figured one mile was a good starting point. I was keeping up a good steady pace. My son even said to me Wow mom slow down! But, then my hip started to pinch so I had to bring it down a notch. I need to ease myself back into the exercise I don't want to undo what I am doing to fix my back and my pain right now. This is not excuses this is simply me being cautious so I do not have to take another long break. (Boo to that!)

I ordered my DDP Yoga today!!! I am so very super psyched about this! After watching the video of Arthur (If you have never seen this video you should!!! I'll share the link)

Video of Arthur he is such an inspiration! This video has made me cry time and time again!

I am really excited to get my package and my new HRM and get started!

So how did your day go today? Did you do anything that you are proud of today? Maybe done something you are unproud of? Share it with me!

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Monday, August 19, 2013

An explanation, an apology, and a new beginning

Many of you are probably wondering, where did she disappear to?! Some of you may have even came to the conclusion that I gave up. You would be partially right and I would have to give you that, if that were the case.

I feel that I owe it to you all to explain where I have been. I pretty much have gone to and through hell and back! I found myself in a very dark place with some cruel and hurtful accusations that were brought on towards me and my fiance from someone that I considered the closest to me, my sister. I really do not want to get into it and explain here, because I do not to give it anymore of my energy. It has taken me months to start healing from what has happened. I found myself questioning whether or not some pretty close people to me had my best interest at heart. I have come to the conclusion that I can not fix every situation or every person and in the process of trying to do so I sabotage myself. So without getting too much into the situation I am putting it in God's hands and learning to let go and find myself again. Who knows maybe someday I will write a book, because Lord knows with some of the things I have had to deal with in my life I could write a series.

On a lighter note, you all have known that I am engaged. However, I SET THE DATE!!! After a few months of pondering whether or not we'll just go to the justice of the peace and then celebrate a reception on our first or maybe fifth wedding anniversary. I felt that I needed to stop selling myself short and NEVER start selling my fiance short. We have found love in despite all that we have gone through to find it and find ourselves. We DESERVED a big wedding and dammit I will find a way to do it! We are funding this wedding ourselves so I am sure you can understand the extreme stress that we are under. We will make this work. So, I have been in the DEEP STAGES of planning my wedding! It has kept me so so very busy! I have already purchased my dress which is so stunning and well TOO SMALL! It was THE dress and the ONLY dress left! I couldn't order it from anyplace else as it was on clearance. So I need to get my butt back into gear so I can fit in this stunning dress! I already have our venues picked out and a down payment on that as well as the limos and the DJ is picked out. I started doing allot of my own DIY projects as I am heavy into the decorating and want it to have my own personal touch. Even though this is a journey of my weight loss I would like to, as well as hope that you will accept me bringing it to this blog as a huge part of my journey and life!

On top of all of that I have been hurt! I am not the healthiest person and well I suffer from fibromyalgia, PCOS, and an autoimmune thyroid disorder. I have been battling with pain for many years. To me turning to pain pills was weak and I never wanted to have to go that route. PLUS addiction scares me. Well recently I have been in so much pain that I have been able to do little daily functions on my own right down to shaving my own legs and difficulty getting dressed. Thanks to my fiance and son for all of their much needed help. I am sure that the stress I have been going through the past few months on top of the fact that I couldn't exercise contributed to the pain I was going through. The pain has gotten so bad that I asked for pain pills, something that anyone who knows me very closely would be shocked to hear about. I was turned down and it really hit me hard that something I tried (a vicoden) that helped me I could not get. Anyway I have gone to a chiropractor thanks to the suggestion of a close friend co-worker. I am going to be going to him weekly for adjustments as well as massages. I also had injections today of steroids in my SI joints. It was not the most comfortable experience, however I am feeling a great deal better ALREADY! I am very hopeful that this is going to work! I go back on September 9th for more shots bilaterally.

I am on the way to healing MIND, BODY, AND SOUL. I promise not to leave you all out anymore because I gain a great deal of strength from you! It's just sometimes when you enter a deep dark place you shut everyone out.

Mind you with all of the anxiety, stress, and depression I have been suffering not only have I not been working out I have not been eating the best. Actually, I have been eating TERRIBLE! It was a heck of a break but I have maintained my weight loss. I have gone up and down 3 pounds here and there but ultimately I have been maintaining with the grace of God! I have no doubt with the rest I have allowed my body to have as well as the bad treatment I have been giving it that getting back to healthy is not only going to be a walk in the park, but is also going to shock my body back into losing!

I am eager to get back at it! I am eager to find the real me within and let her shine. I am eager to stop punishing myself by holding myself back!

Thank you all for still being here and reading this in full and I hope that you accept my apology and continue to follow me on this journey!

Some images that I feel I can relate to and help me put everything into perspective.

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Friday, August 16, 2013

Guest Post: Exercise Sucks

Exercise Sucks.
Never once in my life have I ever had a regular exercise regimen besides my high school tennis team, if you can even count that. Then, due to a few weird circumstances or due to the fact that I began to make my lunch leading me to have nothing to do on my lunch break, I began running on my hour lunch break. Having done absolutely no exercise beforehand, running was definitely rough at first. However, I began to enjoy running 1.5-2 miles every day lunch but why? For a person who has never had a regular exercise routine, I began to kind of wonder exactly what about exercise that made me feel so nice and why I kept at its. Since I work at a medical and reconstructive surgery practice in New Jersey I asked the doctors I come into contact there and they gave me some pretty funny looks. It was kind of like a “DUH don’t you know?” to which I said “yeah. Just kidding” So instead I Googled it and thankfully enough, one of the nice doctors guessed I was not kidding and sent me a quick email on the chemistry behind exercise. So if you’re in a tough spot and don’t really feel like running, maybe running might be just what you need so read on and I’ll tell you why.
  1. Amazing! Exercise controls your weight!
Of course, we all knew this already, was just checking.. but seriously, exercise helps prevent weight gain and helps maintain weight loss.
  1. Stress Kills. Go Exercise.
Exercise certainly can reverse the detrimental effects of stress. Stress seems like such a common everyday occurrence and it is but it is also deathly. Too much stress in your life can lead to so many different unwanted effects such as losing sleep and weight gain. However, just exercising for 30 minutes can blow off tension by increasing levels of calming brain chemicals like dopamine, serotonin, and norepinephrine. Exercise works on a cellular level to reverse stress’s toll on our aging process. According to a 2010 study from the University of California- San Francisco, researchers found that women who were significantly stressed-out that exercised vigorously for an average of 45 minutes over a three day period had cells that showered fewer signs of aging compared to women who were stressed and inactive. You heard it, exercise reduces stress and has anti-aging benefits.

  1. The “Runner’s High”
Runners don’t run behind a bush to light one but instead they get a natural high, which is better anyway. The Runner’s high comes into effect when your body is doing some serious high-intensity workout. Researchers suggest sprint bursts through intercal training. If you can run, bike, or swim as fast as possible for 30-40 seconds then reduce your speed to a gentle normal pace for 5 minutes before sprinting again for a total or 5 sprints you will really feel pretty and shiny for the rest of the day.

  1. Exercise lifts depression
Exercise may be the last thing you’d want to do when you’re down in the dumps, but actually it gives you an emotional lift. Physical activity stimulates various brain chemicals that can leave you happier and more relaxed. The added effect is that you also feel better about your appearance and yourself when you exercise which boosts your confidence and your self-esteem. By burning off 350 calories three times a week through sweat-inducing exercise can reduce symptoms of depression about as effectively as anti-depressants. Research suggests that this is because exercise appears to stimulate the growth of neurons in the brain regions that are damaged by depression.

  1. Exercise keeps your brain fit
As you can notice, there is a huge connection between exercise and your brain. Not only can exercise keep your body fit but it also keeps your brain fit even through mild activity such as a leisurely walk. These types of activity can reduce memory loss and keeping skills like vocabulary retrieval strong. In a 2011 study published in the Archives of Internal Medicine, Canadian researchers analyzed the energy expenditure and cognitive functioning of elderly adults over the course of two to five years. Most of the participants did not work out; instead their activities included short walks, cooking, gardening, and cleaning. Compared to their still peers, the most active participants scored significantly better on cognitive function tests and showed the least amount of cognitive decline.

  1. In a mind- bind? Go dance.
I wish I knew this in college; exercise improves learning. What? Exercise increases the levels of a lot of necessary chemicals in our brain especially ones called growth factors. These growth factors actually help make new brain cells and establish new connections between brain cells to help us learn. What’s even more interesting is that complicated activities such as a dance class or playing tennis will provide the biggest brain boost. Complicated activities such as tennis and dancing forces you to coordinate brain functions with body movements. Because of this, like muscles, you are stressing your brain cells to get them to grow. Complicated activities will also improve your capacity to learn by enhancing your concentration skills and your attention skills.

  1. Exercise keeps Alzheimer’s at bay
The Alzheimer’s Research Center says exercise is one of the best weapons against Alzheimer’s. Exercise appears to protect the hippocampus, which governs spatial navigation and memory. Is is one of the first brain regions to succumb to Alzheimer’s-related damage. A study published in the Archives of Neurology suggests that a daily walk or job could lower the risk of Alzheimer’s and even soften its impact once it has begun.
It’s obviously that not only can exercise keep you fit it does amazing things for your mental health. Sometimes surgery is necessary for weight loss in very severe cases and that’s okay, bariatric surgery exists because some people need it because moving is not plausible. Some people use cosmetic surgery to complement their body such as getting a tummy tuck when excess skin becomes a health problem, again in severe cases. Men who have lost significant weight can become victims of gynecomastia (male breasts); this can definitely be an issue that will lower self-esteem. Cosmetic surgery procedures such as breast reduction and liposuction can eliminate this problem. Cosmetic surgery does not necessarily have to be a bad thing and it can help many people. Nevertheless, the ultimate goal is living a happy and healthy life and exercise is proven to help achieve that goal. However cliché this may be, finding out all of this kind of makes me want to exercise more and not just run but weight-lifting, which I have also never done in my life. We’ll see how that goes.

Jen works for a medical reconstructive and cosmetic surgery center in New Jersey.  She has two kittens and loves to write about all things beauty, women, health and fitness! She spends her days outside and at the center where she learns as much as she can from the board certified surgeons. This plastic surgery center specializes in not only body surgery such as post-bariatric surgery, liposuction and breast augmentations but also facial plastic surgery such as rhinoplasty.

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Thursday, August 8, 2013

Guest Post: Way's Diet and Fitness Can Help With Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

Ways Diet and Fitness Can Help With Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
If you are a woman suffering from Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome than there are many different signs and symptoms that are negatively affecting your life. Challenges such as extremely heavy periods, weight gain and hair loss are just some of the symptoms that a female may encounter if she is facing the repercussions of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Also referred to as PCOS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome can take hold in many aspects of life.
Take for example this list of common signs and symptoms of PCOS:

  • Menstrual Cycle Abnormalities: From heavy periods to irregularity, a woman’s menses is often affected, or absent completely, though this is not always the case.

  • Increase in Weight: Women suffering from PCOS often find putting on weight incredibly simple. This is due to an increase in the hormone insulin within the body and the body not registering it correctly. This incorrect reception of the insulin creates the body to want to produce more insulin, creating a cyclical effect of feeling hungry and a lowering of the metabolism.

  • Pimples are on the Increase: If you are noticing a higher amount of pimples and acne than what is considered normal for you, this may also be a symptom of PCOS. An increase in oiliness of the skin is also a sign.

  • Hair Changes: both the increase of hair growth in certain locations (i.e. thighs, face, chest) and the loss of hair on your head are both symptoms of PCOS.
Although this isn’t a complete list of the signs and symptoms of PCOS, it isn’t reason to feel overwhelmed if you are challenged by this syndrome. There are various ways that you can help yourself…
Diet Changes: One of the best things that you can do for yourself if you are suffering from PCOS is to take an honest look at what you are putting in your mouth. First, you should try to keep your caloric intake to around 1,500 calories if you are overweight to bring yourself back down to your healthiest weight. Keep your diet simple and wholesome. Try to eat foods that are from Mother Earth directly (not canned or frozen or processed) and that are farmed organically. You may want to give yourself a cleanse by doing a juice or other cleansing program to rid yourself of toxins. It is highly suggest after cleansing your body to remain on a diet that is filled with delicious fruits, vegetables, lean proteins and high quantities of filtered water. This gives your body the energy it needs to regain ultimate health and stabilized sugar levels.
Eat Frequently: In addition to eating healthy, another way that you can positively influence your PCOS symptoms is by adopting the idea of eating small, multiple meals (say five or six) per day. This helps your body regulate sugars easier.
Enjoy the Feeling of your Heart Pounding: Exercise is your friend when it comes to combating PCOS. Activity helps your body to flush toxins, lubricate joints and burn excess calories. When choosing what type of activity to do be kind with yourself. Exercises such as walking, jogging, biking, hiking, yoga and meditation are fabulous. Do what you love so that you continue to always do it.


Kishana Sainte writes on health and fitness topics, including women's health and medical conditions on behalf of, a trusted online patient recommendation and medical information website.
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Monday, August 5, 2013


I am in the middle with the dark gray shirt on and light gray pants. (I look thinner in this picture than I actually am, because I was wearing waist and thigh trimmers and boy did they make me sweat!!)

Friday night I went to a kickboxing class that my aunt had set up, with a few girls from work. It was SO much fun!! It felt so good to let out some frustrations. Even though I am shy and didn't give it my complete 100%, as I become more open with everyone in the class I will be sure to give it my all! I hurt for two day's afterwards, but it was so worth it! 

Not only is he going to work us out he is also going to teach us self defense and nutrition information. He is an amazing man with lots of great information! We are going to do it once a week for now but hopefully in the future he will be able to bump it up to two nights a week! 

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